Aug 21

Due to peer pressure I have gone out and got a tumblr blog. In its infancy I still don’t know what it does that say this blog doesn’t save a good deal of interactivity with other tumblr users (and that’s likely enough). But I do worry what this means for this blog… I already blog far less than I’d like and having yet another outlet for my social media and writing means this blog may suffer further.

Which is a shame. I know I’m not alone in this lament, as many of my best friends have complained that better and more creative methods of sharing on the internet are destroying sort of traditional blogs. Unless your Empire Avenue price needs a boost of course.

I’m a little excited for the change, but naturally a little worried. Explained as alternately as either a blog that is easier to update on the go or a long form twitter I’m still not convinced I needed another outlet like this. But let’s find out… I’m off to do the 30 day Tumblr challenge which many have told me is the way to start.

If you’re looking for me on Tumblr I’m at phendrana.tumblr.com.

Jul 28

I can’t deny that Matthew Weiner’s masterpiece had me at the pilot, but increasingly I find I’m haunted by the themes, images and characters of Mad Men. It has been a long wait for the fourth season and I’m glad to see it return in my life.

I’m almost overwhelmed by the beauty of the series, and how much it feels like the world of my parents but inhabited by real, flesh and blood people. But and idealized version of their 1960s world, and one inhabited by characters I simulatanously want to be and loathe.

I want so badly to be Don Draper. But at the same time I know I lead a richer, more full life than he does.

I don’t watch a lot of television. I firmly believe I can only really keep up with at most four shows, and one has to be a bit more inane than the others (Big Bang Theory FTW!). But I cannot over recommend Mad Men to anybody. It is so pleasing to the eye, so filled with style and grace, how could you not watch?

I typically try and avoid writing about product endorsement, but Mad Men is different because too many people are turned off by the elevator pitch – and the pitch sucks, no question. “Explore the mysogyny of the late 1950s and early 1960s in a New York ad agency” or “See an ad exec throw away his family due to his philandering ways” just doesn’t ring the same way other shows or movies could. But spend more than 30 seconds this summer and invest your time in watching a couple of episodes of Mad Men.

Every episode causes a conversation, a deep and real conversation with our family. Every time I see great design I note it can’t hold a candle to the best Sterling Cooper (or SCDP) can put out. And it will challenge your morals, about why our society went down the path it did in the 1960s.

Jul 20

I have a love-hate relationship with photos. First and foremost, I hate my own picture being taken. It isn’t that I’m ugly, as that determination is left for others, but I really just don’t like it. As for taking pictures myself I really never have taken it up as a hobby, which in the words of David from The 40-Year-Old Virgin is the only hobby I don’t have. I thought things might change when I got an iPhone, the first mobile phone I’ve had with a camera. But no. It hadn’t. Until last Friday.

I bought a little iPhone app called Hipstamatic – a lot of my friends tweeted about it and I do love gadgets. And when I say I have a love-hate relationship, the love is not just for awesome pictures of dogs, cats, mountains and hot girls – I love lots of pictures that have any kind of quirky or artistic twist. Just I couldn’t ever really express myself in it, my pictures were too ordinary and lacked character. I think that the potential was always there, I just needed a push. Well, Hipstamatic gave me the push. This past weekend on a trip to Wainwright I literally took over 100 photos. To be clear, that might be more than all the other pictures I ever took – combined. Here is a sample of my weekend shots.














Jul 13

But I’m fairly uncertain what to do with it – I do need to feel better as in there is a lot of stuff to do at work, but I’m not so ill that I am confined to my bed moaning a lot. It’s kind of an odd place to be – although it may mean there is enough energy to do something work related but not all the way to doing “work”.

I wonder what other people do with their sick days. When you think of them while at work you romanticize them – imagining worlds conquered in video games, or movies watched, books read, but when you actually need to take one you lead a sedentary life that matches your pets.

Boo. Now I want to go to work.

Jul 07

Happy Anniversary Allie! I love you with all my heart.

Jun 28

Like many I am not happy with what went down in Toronto over the weekend, and I can’t seem to stop thinking about it. My disappointment is at so many levels and so many different people. While I thought about the order, I wouldn’t read too much into it – there is enough blame that I’m not sure we have to portion it out, just know that lots of Canadians are disappointed in you.

To the protesters who destroyed property, threatened people, and committed dozens of crimes this weekend – I am upset that you perverted an event for your own ends, ends that society doesn’t support and employing tactics that hurt dozens of people and businesses, big and small. You provided the justification for the security and your provocations invited a police response that was not otherwise needed. Your actions are not just illegal, they are not wanted and I condemn the acts.

To the police, if you can’t do your job without violating an individual’s Charter rights, we have a problem. I don’t want to pretend that I understand the legal intricacies of your job this weekend, and I recognize that situation in downtown Toronto could have escalated to a point where it could have spiraled out of control, but when I watch the video above I can’t help but think that you’ve gone too far. It’s offensive. It’s more than unfortunate. And I believe based on what I’ve read and heard that it was unnecessary, as were many of the 900 arrests you made over the weekend.

To the officials who closed the sanctioned protest point at Queen’s Park – citizens need to have a place to voice their dissent. It’s a basic human right. I recognize that safety concerns mean that the point cannot be right in front of the convention centre, but if so you need to provide an alternate space. Dispersing that group then placed hundreds in the difficult place of deciding whether or not to exercise their rights somewhere else – somewhere that threatens the security of the conference you’re protecting.

To the people who organized alternative conferences to the G20 – perhaps you are the least to blame – but be more active in providing an alternative dialogue to the closed system of the G20. Make it real, make it accessible, and make it clear that you condemn rather than condone the destruction of your city.

To the assembled heads of states and heads of governments of the G20 – maybe this roving conference idea isn’t working the way you want – you are giving the impression of disenfranchisement while creating logistical nightmares. I don’t know what the solution is, but there are those who said if you had it in Toronto in January there would have been fewer problems. If you had held it in northern Ontario in the winter there would be even less. As well, on the content of what you do – ensure you are paying attention to what your citizens are saying. Your agenda is not universally shared, and while I applaud your efforts to protect our monetary system and the economic recovery it needs to be defended not through truncheons but through rhetoric and leadership.

Finally, to the mainstream media and social media covering the conference – a lot actually happened in the discussions, discussions that you should have reported on. The stories on the protests and near riots are important, but the lawlessness of Toronto on Saturday pales in comparison to a good Montreal Stanley Cup riot. The next morning La Presse’s headline was still that Montreal won the cup. Your attachment to the images of the protests fed the violence and ignored the issues. And you did so salaciously. It took me ages to find out what the more violent protesters were in fact protesting against – and I had to find out on the kind of sites that cause CSIS to put a note on my file, rather than reading any story from the Globe or the Star.

What a terrible weekend. A black mark for the City of Toronto.

Jun 25

Do you see that tiny space my leg occupies? For a moment in history my whole dog was in that space and I was terrified. We went to the dog park, like we so often do, and Allie opened the side door of our minivan and our dog Luna leapt into the sunlight at the base – but she was not narrow enough.

Somehow she got her head and shoulders through but couldn’t get her hips through. Thankfully Allie didn’t close the door as soon as she saw Luna semi-leap out – otherwise…

Luna wasn’t hurt, just stuck. She was concerned of course. She looked around with worried eyes. Attempts at pulling her back into van failed, attempts at pushing her through the space led to a small cry of complaint.

My brain flew fast, as did Allie’s – do we call 911? Will they use the jaws of life to destroy our van door and rescue our family member?

Do we call a vet? Will they break our dog’s hip to wedge her through the space?

Do we call Dodge, the maker of our van, who might send someone to remove the door carefully, freeing our pet?

I decided to call Dodge – I figured they offer us 24/7 roadside assistance and they seemed most likely to extricate our dog with the least amount of pain to both her and my wallet. I pet my dog, assured her everything would be alright, got up and opened the passenger door to get the number. Luna I guess decided it was just time to go and determinedly forced herself through the space and ran off into the dog park. Huge tufts of dog fur trailed in her wake, the only damage from her brush with being squished.

Jun 21

On the drive home from a business trip my colleagues and I were discussing movies. I love how that sentence makes it sound like I’m all grown up. And on that topic of being grown up we got to the topic of whether it can be socially acceptable for grown men to cry at movies. I was willing to test the waters right away and declare that yep, I cry during some films. And the mockery that ensued suggests that that social norms don’t yet welcome it.

Not that I don’t like the mockery – I welcome it. I’m sufficiently comfortable in my own skin to admit what I admitted, as well I am sufficiently comfortable to mock those whose list is even longer than this. I declared to the car there were 10 movies I cry during, and I said it in a way that made it sound like I confidently counted when in fact developing this list I found it wasn’t as easy as I thought. Not all 10 cause guaranteed tears, but all have resulted in my own personal Niagara Falls upon initial viewing, if not over multiple screenings.

Armageddon
The one that was first mentioned in the car, and the one that results in Duncan tears almost every time at the very end.

YouTube Clip at the very end of the film

The Iron Giant
I passionately believe that this is one of, if not the most underrated movies of all time. I love it and could not possibly recommend it enough. Sadly, few people have seen it, and if you are one of them make an point to catch it the next time you rent a movie or are on iTunes.

YouTube trailer

The Fellowship of the Ring
I believe this is my favourite of the three Lord of the Rings films, although really I tend to judge them as a single really long movie. The climax in particular is quite touching, and sets up a great adventure in the second and third acts.

The Return of the King
Bookending the climax of the first film is the climax of the third film. Now including both these films was difficult because while I certainly know I had man tears in theatres for both, I do not continue to cry today when I watch. But don’t let that take away from the fact that I think the ending is both emotional and fitting.

The Patriot
I don’t especially like this Mel Gibson film about the American Revolution and there isn’t much that is special about it, even with the presence of a young Heath Ledger, but there is a scene with Gibson’s character and his daughter that really gets me everytime. It is unlikely many will see the film if they haven’t already, so I’ll spoil away – the daughter stopped speaking before the film starts after her mom passed, and as Gibson’s character leaves to go to war again she breaks out in tears and begs him not to go. Sniff.

YouTube clip – go to 1:35 to see the scene I’m talking about

Braveheart
A much better Gibson film, and one where there are multiple tugs on my tear ducts. I would also imagine given the nature of the film, an appropriate example of when it is ok for men to cry in a film.

The Shawshank Redemption
As a now popular film on video, then on cable television I imagine almost all of you readers have seen it, but if you haven’t go get it. The very, very end gets me briefly each viewing, but far more accurate to say I choke up rather than let go completely.

Big Fish
If you are a man who has a Dad and loves him at all, it is hard to watch and not feel something at the climax. Toronto Mike has a great rundown on why it makes guys cry, so I won’t rehash it, rather just link.

Toronto Mike

Schindler’s List
As I am not made of stone, it wasn’t until the third or fourth viewing that this film didn’t cause me to reach for the kleenex. I also have decided this movie, one of my favourites, is a standard bearer for two other World War II films that cause me to come close to tears – the Pianist and Saving Private Ryan. All three are worth checking out.

Passion of the Christ
I wonder if it is Mel Gibson who is the common link here… in any case, the scene where Jesus falls while carrying the cross and Mary comes to help him up chokes me up – it is a well-crafted moment in what otherwise is a difficult and almost disturbing movie to watch. If you haven’t seen it, I would suggest Martin Scorsese’s The Last Temptation of Christ over this film, which is a much more intelligent and thought-provoking (not to mention enjoyable) version of Christ’s last days prior to crucifixion.

Jun 15

I have agonized and agonized and today was the deadline to make the decision and I have decided to defer once again, but in all likelihood that deferral means I’ll take a pass.

I want to be gadget cool. I want to be surfing the internet in Starbucks on an iPad. Except I have no real idea what I’ll do on a iPad over my present iPhone or MacBook Pro.

I went to the Apple Store today and touched one for the first time in any meaningful way, and I can’t deny its very slick. Everything works and moves the way you expect Apple stuff to work. I’m sure it is everything Steve Jobs and friends claim it is, but for the life of me I still don’t know where I will use it over my other two primary devices. I can see surfing in bed with it over my iPhone. And I know at first I will take it to the coffee shop over the MacBook Pro. But I’m not so sure in the long run. The keyboard, while of course much better than the iPhone, was certainly not a typist’s dream. I tried a few times to touch type and failed. Of course there is a snazzy keyboard/dock, but that is a little expensive (although to be honest this exercize is already bourgeois, cost isn’t the major factor) and more importantly adds bulk and stuff to the package which enhances the value of the notebook.

I’ve quizzed people with one, read on the internet and asked random users what they use their iPad for and still haven’t come to a solid conclusion. As much as I hate to say it, until I come up with a use for it, I’m skipping the iPad.

Jun 09

Like most political hacks in Canada, I read with interest the rumours, apparently well-sourced and highly placed, that the Liberal Party and New Democratic Party are discussing what a merger would look like between their two parties. The original CBC story is here, and since that time Bob Rae has come out to provide some official denials. And even within the original story heavyweights like David Herle speak against it, as well as a fairly clear quote from Michael Ignatieff – but denials aside, I saw Peter McKay make similar denials about mergers that were equally if not more clear and he still has a job, so I wouldn’t put too much in the public denials. That doesn’t mean I think a merger will happen, because I don’t.

If it were to happen though what would it look like? And what would change in Canadian politics?

If the two parties merged for the transparently obvious reason of winning the next election and kicking out Stephen Harper from Sussex Drive I think it would go along way to taking Canada down the path to a two-party system. I would even hazard a guess that it may lead us to a formalized two party system like the United States has. I’m not necessarily opposed to a de facto two-party state, but leaving the power to reform the electoral system in the hands of only the Democrats and the Republicans in the United States hasn’t necessarily served that country well. Here in Canada, while I remain a fan of the electoral finance changes, my main knock against them is how hard it will be to effectively start a new party. In order to get public money for your party you need votes. In order to gain votes, you need the ads and organization money can buy. In order to get public money… you get the picture. In a world with only two parties plus the Bloc the system will serve to entrench itself possibly to the point that we will never see a new party develop.

I also worry that the system will become more bitter, more partisan and more the things we hate about politics. I must confess, when the idea of a merger on the right was proposed I didn’t see that shift coming. Since 2003 the level of rhetoric and partisanship has steadily increased within the ranks of the Conservative Party of Canada – well beyond the barbs thrown during the time of the Reform Party/Canadian Alliance/Progressive Conservatives. They knew who the enemy was and knew what would work to gain power. The Liberal Democrats would be no different – never really working with the Conservatives to govern, never letting up in painting the Conservatives like demons.

In my mind the best thing about the CPC merger was the end of the one party plus system of governance, where only the Liberals had a competitive shot at forming government. It increased the options for Canadian governance, making elections matter more. The proposed merger does the opposite, decreasing the possibilities for Canadian governance and entrenching that choice.

The merger makes any form of coalition government impossible (Between who? The Bloc and one of the two main parties?) and it reduces the flexibility of Parliament.

I hope the two parties think carefully about the path they are going down. Coalitions, especially when done with greater legitimacy and foresight than the attempt two years ago, offer an opportunity of interest and compromise that I dread will be lost in the new two party system. And not just coalitions, but parliamentary cooperation and the diversity of interactions between civil society and political parties.

As I was wrong about exactly the kind of political situation that developed from the right-wing merger I may be wrong about the consequences of this one. But I don’t see it leading Canadians to the centre, rather to two polarized extremes.

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